My Muse Bought a Train Ticket Out of this Dump...I Wish She'd Come Back

(I'd like to begin with a shout out to Ms. Sass over at words with sass, for inspiring this one.)

I keep waking up to the same old things, scratching my head, and wondering what I'm doing wrong.  There's all of this greatness right there within my reach, but for the life of me, I can't get more than just a few fingertip scrapings.  I keep waiting for that spark or that flash, that'll get everything rolling again.  That moment where everything will only make sense, and then suddenly I'll be one of those people smiling, like in all of the great Coca-Cola ads.

If only it were that simple.

There seems to be something missing.  The fire, that burns within and makes me strive for daily greatest, could use a few extra coals.  My personal life is static electricity, currently experiencing a major outage.  My writing...ugh!!...don't get me started.  My 'muse' bought a train ticket out of this dump.  As of right now, it feels like a one way trip.

And yet, I still find it hard to panic.  The optimist in me still sees all of the potential.  I know that with a few alterations, a quick tuck here and a couple of snips there, then it'll be back to that fabulous life I've always envisioned myself leading.  But as my mother and sisters can tell you, I make a terrible seamster.

So I patiently wait for that 'it' to come back, the driving force that will carry my life from the dull to the unique.  Perhaps it is already with me.  Maybe I just need to focus on noticing.

Marcus Jamison, the Rare Poet

Rare Groove, Jan. 23, 2011

Nicki Minaj --- Save Me

A lot of people give Nicki Minaj a hard time.  Sometimes I'm one of them.  But I must say that Pink Friday surprised me.  And this track is one reason why.  It shows a must more dynamic side of the eccentric performer.  It's well written, and has this mellow hip-hop/techno/pop vibe.  Something you can actually listen to without shaking your head negatively.  It's song like this that make me thing there's more to Ms. Minaj than meets the eye.

Marcus Jamison, the Rare Poet

Seek and You Shall Find

So my computer has been through a lot.  But with the help of my brother-in-law, it's running like never before.  Which makes me ponder...sometimes thinks may look dire.  It might look like a situation has no hope.  But there are moments when, when you seek something better, it finds a way to appear.  I laughed a bit about my computer crashing late last night, even though I was disappointed.  I looked for the bright side.  Eventually, it found it's way to me.  Here's to always trying to stay positive.

Marcus Jamison, the Rare Poet

Looking for the Bright Side

(This post is being made from somebody else's computer.....)

I only mentioned where I am writing this, because it's relevant to the post.  About 3 hours ago, my computer crashed.  It wasn't one of those normal, power-flickers-off-and-then-jumps-back-on, subtle kind of crashes either.  It was a "holy shit, is it supposed to make that noise?  and why won't it come back on?" type crash.  I surprised myself with how calm I remained.  I decided I'd calmly check out the inside of the computer and make sure nothing was wrong.  Big mistake.  Immediately I noticed what was wrong.  Let's just say that video cards aren't supposed to go in like THAT!!!  So then I was worried that I'd managed to fry my sole soure of sanity and connection to the outside world.  (Okay, maybe that's an exaggeration, but only slightly)  The point is, after 2 hours of frustrated hunting with a flashlight, unplugging and replugging and unscrewing and rescrewing, I finally gave up.  But surprisingly, I still wasn't upset.  I released a gentle sigh, and thought about all of the good that has come from my computer.  I remembered all of the hours writing, watching movies, listening to great music, surfing the web, and just generally getting away.  After that, I couldn't feel bad.  Besides, now I have a reasonable excuse to get a new one!!

Marcus Jamison, the Rare Poet

This Should Make You Reflect (Awesome Repost #12)

I'd like to thank Amir Sulaiman for continuously presenting things that make my mind delight with wonder. This video was filmed in the Redwood forests of Humboldt County, in northern California.


Growing is Forever from Jesse Rosten on Vimeo.

"...it is not easy to grow so much, for so long..."

I focused in on this line, because it, like much of the video, paralleled the growth of mankind.  We could still learn a lot from the natural world around us.  There is a resiliency in growth, that often takes more patience than most people are willing to put in.  Some trees take decades to reach their maximum height, and others even longer.  It discourages me that many people, myself included, are resistant when it comes to giving a minimal amount of time and effort that will add up to maximum growth in the long run.

"...it was very quiet, all the time, because the trees needed to focus on their lives..."

I was really affected by these words.  As a constant and, at times, very loud complainer, I took from this that sometimes in order to grow, I could use a "just shut up" moment.  Stop complaining so much.  Stop getting so caught up in everything negative, and positively focus on my life.  Mankind should take note of this as well.  Growth takes being silent and focusing, two things that we are historically notorious for neglecting.  200, 000 years in existence, and modern man still hasn't grown beyond war, violence, discrimination, and hate.  Sounds like a bit more growth must take place.

"....growing is forever, they whisper."

So very true indeed.  May we continue to try to grow, into better people, living better lives, in a better world.

Marcus Jamison, the Rare Poet

Because We Could All Use The Extra Love (Awesome Repost #11)

(Must say that I am upset that YouTube no longer offers the color choice when embedding...those blue borders matched my blog perfectly...lol...but oh, well...)

This little bit of awesomeness is courtesy of SusuanaLoves You :) (one of my favorite blogs).



Lucy & the Cloud Parade --- Love Yourself

As the song says, "be who you'll be....no need to change...love, love yourself..."

I think this is something that most people find hard to do. We are all so stuck on the physical. And we all seek others to validate us. But I believe it is important to first start with self-love. Understanding that you are beautiful, simply because you are, is the first step to accepting love and reciprocating love. So right now, walk in front of the largest mirror you can find, smile at that beautiful reflection, and yell as loud as you can, "I love me!!!"

Didn't that feel good?!....much love from me to all those people who love themselves. Continue to be your most beautiful you.

Marcus Jamison, the Rare Poet