But, basically for about a year now, there has been this underlying current of feeling that has me thinking I am behind. Things, in my life, simply have not manifested as quickly as I'd like them to. I guess this is a typical case of wanting what you want, well before it is time to get what you get, or something like that. But I still feel my life is in queue for much more.
After reading the above mentioned post, a relaxation occurred. I didn't feel as bad about the slow procession my arrival at my life's goals seems to be taking. I am just happy to feel like it's coming. I think the negative or downward spiral things has taken in the past can now only mean an "up" is approaching.
Just today, out of nowhere, I received a call for a job interview. This wasn't even a job I applied for. But the fact that this offer has manifested itself invokes the possibility of the positive. I am eagerly anticipating the future. Again. I'm laughing right now, because it seems I need several of these moments to embrace the good I see coming, in order to simply move towards them. But I think that's okay too.
I love this quote:
"In the depths of winter, I finally learned there was in me, an invincible summer."---- Albert Camus
No matter how cold, or how barren, things seem, there is always a fire burning within, fueling us to do those things, which ultimately must be done. We will not freeze in these winters. Eventually, we will shine, as flames.
I am ready to shine. But I am also patiently waiting.
Marcus Jamison, the Rare Poet
