I am a coward....
I am afraid to fail....
I don't like to fall, so sometimes leaping is out of the question....
I keep thinking about my legacy, and feeling like I've accomplished nothing....
I wonder if I died tomorrow, outside my circle, would it matter?....
But luckily this is the prelude....until the credits roll, I know that I have only just begun....
Marcus Jamison, the Rare Poet
I feel the same way. Are you my twin? lol
ReplyDeleteI never thought to sum it up in just a few words like you did here. I've been carrying it inside and not written it because it always felt like it needed to pour out in a lengthy confession, of sorts. I can relate. You've just summed the way I feel about myself - going on about 6 years now. It's the bravest thing that you've done here because this feeling is very hard to admit to. But admitting it...and knowing that others feel the same way, is the first step. I know it just helped me. I guess there are a lot of us that are adult and still ask seek the answer to the "what do I want to do when I grow up?" question. Sometimes it's right there to identify, other times the fear is too great to pursue it for fear of failure. That's where I am but somehow hearing that I'm not alone in this, simplifies the process to "get there".
ReplyDeleteMuch appreciated!
lol @ Terri...I actually have one of those in Maryland, but I understand. I'm lucky that there are those twin-like souls in this world, such as yourself, who can relate.
ReplyDelete@Traci....Thank you so much for sharing this. This was definitely one of those "I can't hold this in much longer" moments. I'm not sure how long I've been feeling this way, but I know it feels like way too long. Fear can be so crippling at times, but interestingly enough, the best way to start getting over it, is admitting that it's there. I'd definitely love to read whatever you write on the subject.
Thank you to both of you ladies, for reading, for relating, and expressing yourself here. Hopefully we all find that place we want to be, and get there, really soon. Much love.